Sunday, August 09, 2009

I'm Baaack . . . I Think

Over the past few months I’ve put my brain into even more of a self-imposed state of hibernation than usual due to a series of events including :

A fraudulent accusation by a nutcase accusing my son of purposefully kicking the back of her chair in a theater when he crossed his legs. She wanted him charged with assault! The kid’s never even been in a fist fight. The accuser and her husband were on police blotters, had aliases, but we couldn’t bring that up because she was the “victim.” I think they thought we’d give them a call and make an offer to make it go away, but we had nothing to offer. No telling how many innocent victims she’s had and probably continues to have. Never being in the courts for my entire family’s history, I learned that anyone can make any accusation and no matter how outrageous, the accused pays for the entire debacle. In England the accuser pays if the case is deemed ridiculous—as it was—but not in good old America! In short, we endured a several months long nightmare, or should I say daymare, because I barely slept through the entire ordeal. Case dismissed, but legal fees and moving him to another location because these people know where he lives (another courtesy of the court)—very pricey.

Moses, my 14-year-old pug and my little baby: we had to have him put to rest after months of trying to address with pharmaceuticals what may have been sinus cancer. The tests and the operations were just too cruel at his age so I gave it a try. It was rough going, so I finally had to make the call. After years of having that heavy little fire hydrant command my sleep position, I actually thought I’d sleep better even after all the grief, but so far I still can’t get quite as comfortable without his pudgy little body against me. Can there be too much flexibility freedom?


Bills without billables. The year for this freelancer has been a bit meager which means I spend my time looking for work or completing the little work that I find. I’m very tired of the whole shebang, but sort of stuck in a rut. Anyone know of a company that will hire geezers?


I have to have outpatient surgery. What a hassle! Nobody hates hospitals and medical procedures like I do, but hey, guess I better go while I can. I understand that soon I’ll be categorized as not worth resuscitating. Are they going to put that on the driver’s licenses along with the donor status? NWR!


Okay, so kvetch, kvetch, kvetch. My sense of humor may eventually make a comeback, but right now it’s in slo-mo. I’ve missed my little blogging habit though. It’s an outlet, so I’m plugging back in and hoping my generator will recharge.

2 Comments:

At 5:46 AM , Blogger Perry said...

Gail, I'm sorry to hear about your having to make the decision regarding your Pug. I remember a similar choice I faced in 2003 when I put down Rocky AND Bruno my two Schnauzers.

I capitalize the "and" because I chose to have both of them put down the same day. They were from the same litter and spent all but about two weeks of their lives together. The doctor asked when I told her my plan why I was putting them both down since only one was in immediate need of that strategy. My answer was "I know I'll still be too grieved to make this decision again in three months."

The grief is as real in parting with our animal friends as it is when saying goodbye to human friends. But as in both cases, the heart heals eventually and you go on.

I hope your heart heals soon.

Perry

 
At 11:57 AM , Blogger Gail said...

Thanks Perry. No one could have stated it better. Last year at about this same time, I had to make the same decision with my 15-year-old Lab. That one just about did me in as well. Almost immediately afterward, my son called begging us to take a dog that was about to be euthanized. Now we have him and another rescue. They are such good companions that they seem to have been in the same litter together.

I think that was a very brave decision you made about your schnauzers. Why do we keep putting ourselves through it? I think because the love they give us is so much more than the grief, even though it never feels that way when we lose them. Thanks for your very comforting comment.

 

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